THE ANXIETY


I spent a month riddled with anxiety and fearing the unknown (one of my biggest fears) not knowing the outcome. I woke up everyday with a tension headache. The motivation sucked out of me. Seeing the real in everything—so intensely. I spent hours in my own head (which only caused me to overworry) which happens often when my anxiety takes control. I tried to control the narrative as much as I could… until it controlled me. I feared the procedure. I feared the results. I feared my life. That month passed very slow and kept me hugged tight… in the worst way.Today, I am free of my anxiety. I can breathe again. No cancer was detected. I was hesitant sharing this publicly, but mainly because I wasn’t ready to… I didn’t understand how I felt in those moments but once the fog cleared… It’s freeing to share everything because I know someone out there may be going through something they don’t talk about... 

This is a reminder you’re not alone✨

I conquered my anxiety once again.

BY: ERIC SIAN 

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