Everyone Can Cry.

 ■THE WAR WITHIN. 

●Part 1 of 5.

●1● Everyone Can Cry.

The phrase " Everyone can cry " Well it seems no one cares about that phrase because they dont understand and never will feel the pain I go through and honestly I don't want them to go through my pain so I keep trying, Trying to get on a good sleep schedule, Trying to look at my reflection without being self-conscious, Trying to just keep that small speck of sand amount of hope that can keep me going.

People are the reason my hope gets taken away piece by piece everyday.


Yet, I still try and I don't want an apology, I don't want a hug, I don't even need love.I just want to get out of this box of shame that I locked myself in for 2 years.


But I keep falling back in and everytime I do it makes me more and more weak- And the more I smile the more energy I use.


I may not have the worst life but it doesn't matter. I'm a human with emotions too.


We all are. And everyone has an enemy that is hard to defeat.


That enemy is myself and everytime I fight I'm hurting myself.But if I don't fight, The enemy will destroy the ones I love.


So I'm just walking through the same door everyday, Not going anywhere but a circle of pain.


And I dont have enough energy to make a full smile when someone says I'm worth it.


I just smile with tired eyes.
The guilt consumes me.....

@Ericsian 21Poet.

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